Monday, November 5, 2012
Stress Fracture
Monday, June 25, 2012
Final Blog: Top 3's!
Top 3 things I got to see:
3. Victoria Falls in Zambia. This probably would have been higher up on the list if it had not been so cold. The waterfall made it so that there was a constant rain in the park which made it a little less fun.
2. Chobe Game Park in Botswana. One of my friends and I hitchhiked to Botswana during one of our weekends in Zambia to go get an African safari experience. We pretty much saw every African animal except a lion which was pretty cool.
1. Table Mountain in Cape Town. This is the main tourist attraction in Cape Town and I was worried that I wouldn't get to climb it because it is right in the middle of rainy season down here. Thankfully, God heard my prayers and gave us some really nice weather and I was able to climb it with three good friends. Another added bonus was that we got to see a really nice sunset!
Top 3 foods I've missed:
3. Dairy Queen ice cream. The ice cream is very different here so I'm pumped to go get a few Blizzards when I get back.
2. Panera Bread. They don't have bagels down here, so I've really been looking forward to going to Panera and beefing up my rewards card when I get home.
1. Brats. I have no clue why I miss brats so much since they probably aren't even in my top 10 favorite foods, but I've been craving them hardcore for the past three months so they earn the top spot.
Top 3 favorite things about Africa:
3. Slow pace of life. It's crazy how much slower everything is out here. It can be frustrating at times, but I've really come to appreciate it lately.
2. Seeing oceans and mountains everyday. We are surrounded by mountains and it's only a 3 mile run to both the Indian and Atlantic oceans. I'm definitely gonna miss this when I get back to MN.
1. Warm weather. It's in the middle of winter but it still gets up to 60 degrees everyday. I would not mind at all if I never saw snow again. I can kind of be a Scrooge when it comes to winter.
Top 3 things I won't miss about Africa:
3. Feeling weird for only knowing one language. EVERYONE here seems to know at least two languages, most people actually know three or four. It made me wish I woulda tried harder in my Spanish classes in college.
2. Not having heat or AC. No houses have heat or air-conditioning here, so in the summer it can be brutal to try and sleep in the heat. And in the winter I feel like I am constantly just a few degrees too cold and there is nowhere to go to warm up.
1. The wind. I will never think it is windy again when I get back to MN. It is extremely windy here nearly everyday. So windy that I honestly feel like I'm going to fall over at times on my runs. It is pretty ridiculous.
Top 3 things I have learned from CPx:
3. The importance of living in Christian community. I have very much enjoyed living with lots of people who are all trying to follow Christ wholeheartedly. It makes it a lot easier to stay motivated when you are surround by like-minded people.
2. The importance of 1-on-1 discipleship relationships. I've had two people discipling me while I've been out here and it has been great for my growth. They have done a great job of keeping me accountable on a weekly basis. I look forward to finding similar relationships back in the Twin Cities.
1. It is more about trust than clarity. So many people here seem to be uncertain about their future, yet they are so at peace about it that it blows my mind. From the people I've talked to, they've said that they don't have clarity for the future very often but they know God does so that keeps them at peace. This is something I'm horrible at, but hopefully I'll keep getting better.
Top 3 things I learned about God's character:
3. God hates pride. This has probably taken me a lot longer to fully realize than most people, but I feel like God really spoke to me about a lot of pride issues in my life. Also I came to realize just how much humbling yourself before God is talked about in Scripture. This is something I'll need to work on as well.
2. God truly wants everything from us. Over this past year I have felt God picking out parts of my life one-by-one asking if I could give that up for Him. And every single time I think that this will be the last thing God will want from me. But it finally hit me in Zambia that God REALLY does want all of me. This was a depressing thought for me at first since I had this feeling that God was just leading me into a life of no fun. This probably would still be a depressing thought for me if my realization for the #1 thing hadn't grown on this trip
1. God's love. I have been so numb to this statement for years. Thankfully, I feel like God really started showing me how much He loves me. He doesn't want my life to suck, or for me to be depressed doing something I don't want to do for the rest of my life. But He truly wants the best for me! And that sometimes means it will include doing things I don't want to do, but ultimately, He wants me to live a life full of joy that brings glory to Him. I feel like I should have understood this long ago, but I guess it took God bringing me all the way out to Africa to teach me this.
So I guess that's it. It has definitely been a life-changing 5 months for me, but I'm super glad to get back and see everyone again. I will also be very happy to get new running shoes as my current pair will have 1,730 miles by the end of tomorrow. I will be getting back to the States later this week but probably won't make it down to the cities until the July 7-9 weekend. Thanks so much to everyone who has been praying for me and to everyone who actually reads this thing. I appreciate you all so much.
God bless!
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Wiped out...
So I noticed that my left heel has really been hurting on my runs lately. Since I rarely get injured (thank the Lord), I figured it had to be my shoes that were causing the pain. They had been looking a little beat up and I hadn't switched shoes since I had been to Africa yet. After adding up my shoe mileage I realized that I have 1,482 miles on my current pair which is about 3x the amount that you are supposed to put on a pair. Oops. Hopefully I can limp through these last 23 days without having them fall apart.
For everyone who knows that animals and I don't get along very well, I'm sure you will appreciate this story. Our team of 7 people was visiting a pre-school in one of the villages this past week. When we were standing around outside just waiting around I noticed there was a bird flying towards me. It wasn't very close yet but I noticed how it seemed to be coming right at me. As I continued watching it just kept getting closer and closer. Finally, I realized that this bird was coming right for me! So at the last second I did the most awkward twist/scream/duck in hopes that the bird wouldn't hit me. Thankfully it didn't hit my face but it did hit my head. I couldn't believe why a bird would just fly into my head. Afterwards, my hip was sore for the next day because of the weird twist I had to pull to get out of the way. Maybe it's just my long hair?
We have one more week in the villages and then we will be getting back to Cape Town on June 12. Even though I'm super excited to get back to a bed and a shower, I will miss a lot of the people that I've met out here.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Hippos, Crocs, and Scorpions?
I have found that the easiest way to draw a big crowd in the villages is to do some push-ups or pull-ups. Every time I do a set I try to find a secret place to do them, but by the end, I have 10+ kids huddled around watching me. Then once I'm done, they all try and copy what I was doing. At first, it was kind of awkward and annoying, but I've been trying to have a good attitude about it and have been trying to have some fun with it.
I have been working with one other guy on our team, Nicholas, and we have been focusing mainly on one village that is 4 kilometers from ours. We have found three guys that we have really good relationships with, and with those guys we are spending a lot of time with them and just pouring into their lives. We will continue spending time with them in hopes that, by the time we leave, they will be able to start sharing the gospel with other people around the villages.
These past couple weeks, God has really been revealing a lot of pride issues in my life that I didn't even know I had. It's been really humbling. He has been focusing on breaking down the idea that I can be self-sufficient. I have realized that, just like every human, I have a lot of weaknesses and brokeness and that no matter how much I think I've got it all figured out, I actually never do. He has really showed me how much I need Him every single day, even on the days that I don't think I do. My brother gave me a verse a couple weeks ago, and I have been clinging onto it ever since. It is Psalm 66:10-12 which says, "For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver. You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs. You let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water, but you brought us to a place of abundance."
Monday, April 30, 2012
Zambia Quick Hits
The bus ride out here was brutal. 52 hours long which spanned two nights of me getting maybe 4 hours of sleep total. But thankfully, we made it!
This is the first time in my life that I don't have access to food 24/7. It's actually been kinda brutal. I have been very tired all week. Probably a mix of eating a lot less than normal, eating no sugar, and being out in the hot sun all day. At least I'm getting tan!
I've been able to run every morning which is a huge blessing! Thankfully, I haven't seen any dangerous animals although we have had some minor problems with crocodiles and hippos near our village. I get to see the sun rise every morning during my run, and no matter how hard I try, I can't get the opening song of Lion King out of my head.
There aren't any mirrors in the village. So today was pretty exciting getting to see my face again after 8 days.
This week we just mainly walked to different villages to start building relationships with people. This next week we are hoping to do the same thing, and hopefully be able to get some small Bible studies started up.
God's grace has been so apparent to me. This week could have very easily been miserable. Even though it was pretty tough, I am just blown away at how God gave me so many awesome blessings. For example, we ate a lot of rice this week. Although it's very plain, I swear that the Lord gave me different taste buds this week because it tasted almost like ice cream to me! And every night was so great as well. As a team we sat around a fire under the brightest stars I have ever seen and just talked and sang some worship songs. So awesome.
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Headin' to the Big Z!
Running has been a major issue that I've put a lot of prayer into while out here. Admittedly, running has consumed much of my life for the past 10 years and has thus become a pretty major idol in my life. It has always been obvious to me that running is an idol, but it wasn't until after last year's Twin Cities Marathon debacle that I realized how big of an idol it had become. So when I felt God leading me out to South Africa I figured that I wouldn't be running for awhile, which got me pretty down. Once I got here I started praying a lot about what God's will is with my running, and I sought out a few older guys for their advice. And thankfully, I haven't felt that God wants me to give it up, but rather just be very intentional about putting Him before my running. I still need to figure out what that looks like exactly, but I do feel like I have found a much better balance while I've been out here. The awesome thing is, ever since I have felt like God has allowed me to continue running, I have never felt so joyful while out on a run like I have these last couple of weeks! It's given me a whole new appreciation for it. But now that I'm about to head off to Zambia I am beginning to feel all of my normal running worries resurface, such as "What if I can't run as much as I'd like to/what if I can't run at all/what if I get out of shape?" So my prayer for these next couple months will be that I worry more about advancing God's Kingdom than getting my daily run in.
One last thing- I don't know why, but there are very few things in life that I like better than free samples at the grocery store. And since I've been out here I haven't seen ANY free samples even though I've checked religiously every time I go into a store. I think it's just a habit that I've developed. But that all changed when I walked into the local grocery store last week and saw free samples of bread! To say I was excited would be an understatement. My friend Matt, who was with me at the time, seemed very confused as to why I would get so excited about free bread. To be honest, it wasn't even that good, but I made sure to take advantage of it and ended up grabbing four pieces. It totally made my day.
Hopefully I can keep blogging while in Zambia. We will be heading into town one day a week so that we can get internet access. So if I have time, I will definitely keep cranking them out to keep all of you in the loop. Thanks again for the continued prayers!
Friday, April 6, 2012
Sacrifice and Sugar
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Sidwell and Spiritual Warfare
This past weekend was both encouraging and exciting during our local outreach time in the township of Masiphumelele (Masi). It was encouraging because our group hasn't seen much spiritual fruit during our times walking around in Masi, and exciting because I was able to see and experience some spiritual warfare! (Picture: Me, Sidwell, Matt, Sidwell's brother, and Jay)
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Zambia?!
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
March Madness!
I was feeling a little homesick for the US this week because March is my favorite month for sports. Although I can still see scores and results online, I still feel like I will be missing out on all of the big sporting events. These include: Minnesota State HS wrestling tournament, NCAA wrestling tournament, NBA action starting to heat up (Wolves continue to roll!), NCAA conference basketball tournaments, NCAA Indoor Track, Baseball spring training, and of course, NCAA March Madness! Not to mention, there are no shamrock shakes out here...WHAT?!
- I got re-baptized in the Indian Ocean last week! I was reading in Acts 2, and when I came to verse 38 I just felt a tug at my heart, so I decided I would get re-baptized. I was baptized when I was about 14, and though I was sincere about my decision, I don't think I understood 100% what it meant at the time. Overall, it was a great experience and I was glad to have some awesome people there to share the experience with me.
- I have finally been able to get around to some Cape Town tourism these past 2 weeks during our days off. I hiked Chapman's Peak (pictured above) and Skeleton Gorge, and then I went and visited Boulder Beach with Matt and Jay yesterday. All three of them were pretty awesome. Skeleton Gorge had a blood-red lake on top of it which we swam in. Boulder Beach had a ton of penguins which was cool to see, although I didn't like them too much. Sadly, I don't have much of a soft spot for animals in my heart.
- I ran a half marathon this past weekend. A few of the guys from our CPX group were doing it, and since it had prize money, I figured I'd give it a shot. This was probably the first time in 6 years that I've raced while not in race shape, so I had no clue what to expect. With no workouts since Club Cross Nationals in December, I decided just to race for the win and not for time. I felt pretty awkward the first 10k, even though the pace was pretty slow at a little over 34 minutes. At this point I decided to pick it up. I ran some 5:10's and got the lead pack down to four guys- me and three Africans. With about 2 miles to go, the lead biker took a wrong turn that ended up taking me out of the lead. I ended up pressing pretty hard to catch the leaders, but just jogged it in the last mile when I realized I wouldn't catch them. So I ended up 4th in 1:10:38. I was definitely bummed since, a. I lost, b. I was 4+ minutes off a PR, and c. I ran a similar time 6 years ago just after graduating from high school. There was one encouraging thing from the race. I was very surprised with myself by how positive my attitude was. I used to be one of the worst sports out there, so it was cool to see how far God has brought me in this area over the past few years!
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Holy Spirit Week
A few quick hits before I get started:
- I am now a regular at the McDonalds. I walked in this week and the cashier immediately said “Ice cream!” I was pretty pumped because I have never been at a regular at a restaurant before!
- A few of us guys watched Lion King this week. We figured it was appropriate since we’re in Africa. I forgot how good of a movie that is since it’s been over 10 years.
- I finally found a place to do pull ups this week, which is a relief! There are some monkey bars on a jungle gym behind the house that we are staying in. I was worried that my arms would turn to mush if I didn’t do any p-ups for 5 months. But now I don’t have to worry about that. Thanks Lord.
Well this past week was pretty crazy to say the least. The theme for the week was Holy Spirit week. We had a guy named Joe Ewen, from Scotland, come speak to us. After this week, I have a whole new view of the Holy Spirit and the power we have through the Holy Spirit. I have always had some doubt when in it comes to the spiritual gifts of prophesying and miraculous healing. I can be quick to think that that kind of stuff only happened in the Bible, but not anymore. So this week completely blew my mind when I not only witnessed those things, but also experienced them myself! I could write a ton on all the crazy stuff I saw this week, but I will just touch on a few of them.
- I was prophesied over more times this week, than I ever have been in my life! And what I loved about it was that it was so encouraging each time. And all of them seemed to have common themes, which shows me that they were truly from God. Some of the common themes I got were that God has finally got my full attention and will really start to blossom my faith now that He has it. I have been very laid-back about my faith, but this is a season to intensify my faith so I can take on a leadership role later on down the road. I also got three or four different prophecies talking about how I will be a spiritual father to many children from lots of different nations. (I have no clue what that’s all about.)
- We were also encouraged to try prophesying for others to encourage them and also to strengthen our own faith muscle. So I was prophesying for an awesome missionary guy from another country (I don’t think I can say where because of safety reasons), and as I was praying over him I got a vision of a river flowing between two islands. Gradually the river rose until it covered both islands. I honestly thought it was the dumbest thing, so I didn’t tell him but just kept praying. About a minute later, I got the same vision again so I sheepishly told him my vision. Later that evening he approached me and thanked me for the vision (“haha seriously?” was my first thought) and said that is spoke clearly to him. He said he had been debating about crossing a certain river to start planting house churches in a certain neighboring country, and that this vision made it clear that he should go! I was pretty pumped. It was super cool to think that God could use someone like ME to speak to a missionary.
- I was super impressed by Joe Ewen’s child-like faith in the Lord. One of the quotes he used all week was, “Whatever God reveals; He heals.” So whenever he would be in the middle of teaching and get a sudden ache in his right shoulder, he wouldn’t reach for the medicine cabinet, but he would stop teaching and ask who in the room has been dealing with right shoulder pain. I thought it was pretty weird at first, but there was always someone that stood up. So we would lay hands on that person and pray for them, and then they would be healed! It was insane. During one teaching session this week, Joe stopped what he was teaching and decided that there were lots of physical ailments in the room so we just needed a time for healing. So he told us to all start praying. Immediately my stomach got gripped with pain, and so I stood up and asked who was dealing with stomach pain. Sure enough, there was one girl, so we prayed for her and I’m pretty sure she is healed now (I haven’t talked with her yet). As the session rolled on, my stomach started feeling worse and worse, to the point of having to puke. So after trying to be a tough guy for 10 minutes, I finally set aside my pride and asked some people to pray for me. As they were praying for me, my stomach ache completely vanished! One of the first things I felt I had to do was ask the Lord to forgive me for doubting his power for so many years.
So like I said, this week was pretty mind-boggling for me (although it shouldn’t be, because all this stuff is in the Bible). I have never really had first hand witness of God’s power like I have this week, so it was very edifying for me. I’m very thankful the Lord allowed me to experience so much this week, and I’m hoping this will be a spring board for my faith in the years to come. I need to continue working on praying in the Spirit and learning to declare the authority and power we have in Jesus’ name. I’m super excited to see how far God’s power can reach when we have a child-like faith and trust in Him!Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Ice Cream and Discipleship
Well my sunburns turned into a tan this week, so I’m pretty pumped (I can be so superficial sometimes)! I’m also relieved that things are slowing down a little bit this second week. The first week was pretty tiring mainly because there are so many things that I had to adjust too. These included: having to share a room with 5 other guys, three of which come from different countries. Not getting as much free time/alone time as I’m used to getting and not being able to run as much as I have in the past have been trying my patience as well. And just getting used to the new schedule with classes and outreach has been really tiring both physically and spiritually. But with all of this, it has definitely forced me to rely on God for everyday strength. Here are some quick hits from the past week:
- The currency here in South Africa is the Rand. One US Dollar equals 7.7 Rand. Anyway, up until yesterday, I looked at the rand like it was monopoly money for some reason. In this States I’m usually very frugal, but I found myself spending money all the time because it didn’t feel like real money. Maybe it’s because the money looks a lot different than ours. But it hit me yesterday that, “Hey! This is actually real money. So I really shouldn’t be buying candy bars and sports drinks multiple times per day.” It’s really lame that it took me 10 days to realize this but I guess it’s better late than never.
- There is a KFC and McDonalds only two blocks away from here that have 2.90 rand cones, which is only 38 cents in US dollars! I am addicted to them. I usually have one per day, but I have had up to three in one day. So if I’m fat when I get back, then you’ll know why.
- On our day off on Monday, some guys and I went to see the movie Safe House. Not only was it a good movie, but it was also filmed in Cape Town which was really cool!
- I’ve been growing my hair out since January 11th and plan on letting it grow until July 11th. This will be the longest my hair has been since elementary school. I’m not really sure why I’m doing this because I love short hair. I grew my hair out for 3 months once in college in hopes that it would bring more female attention, but that is definitely not my motive this time. I guess I would just like to feel what long hair is like, so let’s hope I can actually make it all 6 months!
The lectures and the teaching here has been amazing. Even after a week, it has completely rocked my view of church, salvation, and discipleship. There are so many things I could talk about, but I will just mention three things that have really been on my heart this past week.
- I was really convicted when one of the leaders talked about how we should never argue people into the kingdom of God. Oops. I can think of numerous times when I tried that, and to no surprise, they failed every time.
- Another thing we learned that changed the way I’ve always thought of salvation is that you don’t bring people to faith to disciple them, you disciple them to faith. Basically this is saying that as Christians, we should focus less on converting people to Christ and leaving them out to dry, and more on building relationships and discipling people as they journey towards Christ.
- Lastly, during class today the Lord really convicted me that I don’t hate my sin like I should, and that I don’t realize how much God hates my sin. I can tend to take my sin kind of lightly, and lots of the time I even wish I could still live in my sinful habits. This is something that I want to focus on praying for over the next couple weeks.
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Wednesday, February 8, 2012
South Africa Quick Hits
- The flight over here was pretty long. 27 hours total, with the longest flight being 17 hours. I felt so claustrophobic. But at least I could watch movies!
- I found out really quick that the South African sun is really intense. I usually take pride in never having to wear sunscreen. But I found myself caking my whole body with it on the second day after getting burned pretty bad on the first day. Definitely a rookie mistake on my part.
- I love the smell out here. It smells like a combo of coconut and pineapple mixed with lotion. I don't know. I just love it!
-A few of us stayed up late and went to a local restaurant in town to watch the Superbowl early Monday morning (it started at 1:30am out here). Sadly, we only stayed til the half and so we missed all the exciting stuff.
- I still can't sleep very well. There is an 8 hour difference in time, and so they say it should take 8 days to get adapted to it.
-I'm super thankful I've been able to squeeze in some runs. Although all of them haven't been too great. It's been 90-100 degrees everyday, there are tons of bikes on the roads, no shoulders or sidewalks to run on, and the cars drive on the opposite side of the road which definitely makes things really confusing. I'm more worried about just surviving than about getting a good workout in. The good thing is, my runs here have been the most scenic runs of my life! And I have been fortunate enough to do some of my easy runs with my good friends Matt and Jay. They know the area a little better and aren't a newbie like I am.
- The program I'm in, which is called CPx (Church Planting Experience), started up on Sunday evening. In a typical week we will spend three of the days (Tues-Thurs) in lectures learning and hearing stories from some very wise, awesome, Christ-following people. Another three days (Fri-Sun) will be spent doing outreach in certain townships in Cape Town. For these outreaches we will be in our church of people (6 or 7) and will just try to love on, serve, and just spread the Gospel. The townships have extreme poverty and generally have pretty high rates of crime. Then on Mondays, we will have the day off!
I've found out quickly that I'm gonna have to get used to being uncomfortable out here. There are so many differences and a lot of daily comforts that aren't around out here like I'm used to at home. But after hearing everyone's awesome stories, I've been so excited to see how God will work in my heart over these next 5 months, and where He will lead me to afterwards. I've already felt Him working in my heart these first few days!
I miss all you guys back in the States! If you guys wanna get a hold of me then just shoot me an email or send me an F-book message. And lastly, Go Timberwolves- they just went over .500 a couple hours ago!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
See ya winter!
Tomorrow is gonna be a long day as I'm flying out for Cape Town in the afternoon. There will be 21+ hours in the plane and 6 hours of layovers. All in all, it should take about 28 hours to get there. Believe it or not, I'm kinda looking forward to being able to just chill out, catch up on some reading and have some solid prayer time!
This past week was pretty crazy as I was trying to get all the last-minute details for the trip figured out, along with a pretty crazy but fun social schedule that included lots of family, friends, and co-workers. One of the most stressful things has been trying to get my travel visa for South Africa. To get my visa I had to send in my passport along with a few other important documents to Travisa in Chicago. On Monday, after making numerous calls to Travisa and USPS I had no other choice but to conclude that my stuff vanished out of thin air as neither of them had any records of where it was. I was in a pretty sour mood, so when my mom told me to pray about it, all I could do was roll my eyes (I'm terrible). After awhile I was able to calm down and spend some time in prayer, and although it didn't seem to do much, I did have a lot more peace about the whole situation. About an hour later, the guy from Travisa called back and said he just found it laying around the mail room! I am just so thankful for the Lord's provision over everything these past few months, it's amazing how quick I can be to forget all that God has done for me in the past.
I'm super pumped that I will be skipping the rest of the winter (even if it is pretty tame) to head to one of the most beautiful places in the world to serve the Lord! I will try to send out weekly, or at least bi-weekly updates to let you all know what's going on over here and how the Lord is working! Lastly I wanna leave you with this verse which I have been loving lately since I have been kinda sad having to leave everyone over here in the States. The verse is Matthew 19:29- "And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life."